Today I read the quote above from Teresa of Avila, a Christian mystic and author during the Counter Reformation, and theologian of contemplative life through mental prayer during the sixteenth century.
I suddenly realized how true her words are for me at this stage of life. People ask me from time to time how it is to live alone since my husband Charles died in March. I notice their surprise when I say “I love it.” And that’s not to take anything away from my marriage to Charles or my love for him when we were together.
But this is a new season–the first time in my adult life to live without others and I’m finding it inspiring, exciting at times, and liberating. I’m enjoying the freedom to do what I want when I want and to discover things about myself that I haven’t known before. When I face a new decision or choice, I’m not scared or worried. I ask God for direction and I receive it. He is definitely a master of all trades! I ask for help with my computer, my finances, my diet, my health, my relationships, even my purchases. You name it and he’s there to guide.
I’m learning to trust and to wait and to accept. I feel peaceful and serene most of the time. I’m observing more and talking less. I’m taking good care of myself and as a result I have more energy for others.
I’m learning to manage my house and my yard and also to ask for help when I need it. Today I am grateful to not only say the words, “God alone is enough” but to experience them.
My God will use his glorious riches to give you everything you need. He will do this through Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19
P. S. My first great grandchild (a boy) was born July 25, strong and healthy. Massey Valentine Suba. I am in love!