I’m gradually building a new life. I’m smiling and laughing again–and then suddenly crying, and then smiling again. Tears come easily but so do sweet thoughts and funny memories of times with Charles:
snuggling under a blanket while watching TV
holding hands while strolling in the neighborhood
going out for Chinese food
enjoying time with family around a dinner table
hiking in the Sierras
camping in a condo-tent near a lake in the mountains
planting flowers in the yard
washing and polishing our cars
praying and singing together
and so many more. But I’m also creating new memories with my children and grandchildren. And there are more to come when I become a great- grandmother in August to a baby boy. As one person leaves another arrives and the cycle of life continues. I remember when I was about to give birth to my youngest daughter my grandfather died. A life for a life.
I’m living on grace, the good will of close friends and family, and the strength and wisdom God has given me all along. I am filled with gratitude and look forward to what the Lord has in store for me as I live this ‘new’ normal.
I believe Charles would be pleased that I am taking his advice:
“Please don’t be sad for too long. You have a lot of life to give–go out and live it and remember that we said everything we wanted to say to one another when we were together.”
“I have come to give you life in all its fullness.” John 10:10